karismar

the longer I live the clearer it is to me that life is not a finite achievement to be accomplished. It is what I breathe, see and feel every minute of every day. There is not finish line, as I used to think when I was a young mother/wife.

Emotions and "hits" are difficult to maneuver through, as my oldest is experiencing. Heartache and struggles are inevitable despite our good intentions. The phone rang Saturday morning at 2am. It was the call we all dread and hope we never get. "    " is in trouble and I need your help, said his roommate. Many factors were involved and none of them safe or good.  Then call number 2 came this morning for child #3.  My youngest has had his drivers license less than a month and had his first collision this morning. I’ve been on nearly no sleep the past several days from what is going on with my oldest and after receiving the phone call this morning about the collision it occurred to me that this is life. Messy and unpredictable, reminding us to stay on for the ride. It’s always risky and vulnerable to love so many and so much. It puts us out there on a tightrope with no net but when we do take the risk, the reward is so fucking great. Like a beautiful piece of textile with different textures and colors.

 

I took a short walk, cleared any pressures I had for myself to accomplish anything today and will just "be"….nourishing myself today so that I can nourish those who will need me when they arrive home. 

and yes, both children are safe and relatively unharmed physically.  

for any parents out there not wanting their child/children to receive propoganda from the armed forces, go to this site and print out two copies to sign. One copy is sent to the Pentagon, where our children’s school information is sent and then passed on to the armed forces, and one copy is sent to your local school superintendent. This is an opt-out form that tells them you do not want any contact between them and your child!

 http://themmob.org/lmca/

Many people do not know this but our public schools(which I stand in strong support of) are required to send student information to the Pentagon and in turn, our fucked up current government sends money back to the schools. Quite a trade, eh?   Thank George Bush for that in the No Child Left Behind Act

 

 

 

did anyone catch the NFL pre-game show tonight?  Bono and Green Day, wow!  The words they sang were so emotional, I cried through the whole show. Bravo to Bono as he is a true humanitarian. He has brought attention to serious world matters….

 

Of course, I wanted to vomit when they brought out George Herbert Walker Bush to watch the coin toss. Nice play on the part of our administration. Bring out Bush right before elections, to try and fool us into thinking the republicans are doing the job. Choosing GHWB over Bill Clinton, whom is the real President fighting for New Orleans.   sickening!