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I’ve been looking ahead to fall/winter for several weeks now. Not sure why but my turning inward started early this season. The farmers almanac is calling for a cold and snowy winter for us, yay! This reinforces my need to settle in early for a long winter. I want to try and keep some of my garden growing as far into winter as I can. I know I said I wanted to put it to bed, and I did take out the tomatoes(they were not doing well) but….now I want to try and succeed at a winter garden. Winter gardens are not nearly as time consuming as summer ones so I have hope. My main reasons for putting forth the effort are to lower my food bill and keep as much local eating going as long as I can. I’m feeling a strong need to save more $$$$ and that just isn’t happening the way I want it to right now.
We’ve had a cool few days and even a couple of rain showers which kept me indoors and the creative bug hit. I’ve sewn curtains for the dining room and my bedroom and a warm blanket for the living room on cold chilly nights in front of the fire.
more to come on the garden plans….

The heirloom squash I started was finally transplanted to the raised beds today. It may be Dec before I have them but they will be ready at some point. I can’t keep my newfoundland puppy out of the gardens! She is really not my puppy, but my kids and husband claim her so I’m stuck with her.  My fear is she will tear through the squash and leave me with nothing. She is nearly two and a pain in my ass!  Good thing she is sooo cute or she may be finding a new home.

I started knitting a cardigan sweater for myself last spring. I fell in love with the yarn…rowan wool in a chocolate brown tweed. love it!  It’s one of those sweaters you want to pull out on a cold fall morning and wrap yourself in all day. The plan was to have it ready for fall so I pulled it out yesterday and started piecing it together. The knitting was complete but piecing it together is like sewing but with huge tapestry needle and yarn.  Now all I have to do is select the buttons and sew them on. Can’t wait til its cold enough to wear it.

I suppose you could say it is my lack of discipline, and you would be right, but I don’t feel a strong spiritual connection lately. Maybe it’s because summer comes in and wipes out any sort of schedule I may have but you’d think with all the time I spend outside in the garden, in the yards, that I would be strong in my connection to earth and all she is offering me. Not so. When the kids are in school I find it so much easier to keep myself in line with a routine and with that life seems to fall into place on its own, including my spiritual side, in a peaceful manner. But now it just seems like I’m out here willy nilly. School starts in a little over a week, perhaps my body will catch up with my brain then.

I did it….accupuncture, yesterday! I’ve been telling myself I was going to try this for the past 2 years. Fear had a lot to do with it but I’m tired of being afraid so I figured what the hell. As she inserted the first needle I could feel my stomach tie up but about half way through my treatment it was as if someone went in and untied the knot. I thought it was probably just me psyching myself into believing it was working but I saw my dr. after the treatment and she said it really does start to make a difference that fast. She also put me on two different types of Chinese herbs, after taking a long look at my ailments/complaints.
When I got home I went online to google the herbs and both had several different symptoms they treated…..everyone of mine was on both lists! This is my time for healing.
ohm shanti

Two days ago I was adding some updates to this blog, excited over the success of my coding(thanks to my dear strangerfriend Steph) and in one swift move it was erased. Fortunately, the wizards here at blogsome managed to show me how to fix it and waalaa. yay!

here are a few shots of the last of my sunflowers….. I love that you can see the bees!

I do not enjoy change nor do I take comfort in the phrase,"the only constant is change"   

My son of 19years, a recent graduate has decided it is his duty to move out. He is a wonderful young man and I realize his need for independence……….however, I didn’t realize how much I would miss him. Every time he comes by I ask if he is eating well and getting enough sleep. "You know, your room is still here for you if you change your mind", I say.
I know mom, I know.

I worry that he is working too hard to pay for being on his own, instead of enjoying the last few years here rent free. Last night as I hugged him goodbye the tears came in a huge wave. This must be the empty nest feeling that I’ve often heard of but could never relate to. Even with more teenagers still in the nest, it has been disrupted and changed. 

change sucks…… 

It is a cool 59degrees here today and I love it!! Nights are cooler, sunsets are earlier and fall is not far behind. However, we are to see 90+degrees on Sunday sigh
I am pulling out the tomatoes tomorrow since they have given me all they’re going to give AND I need the space in the beds for my heirloom squash. My peppers did poorly so they’re coming out too. To be honest, I’ve been ready to put my garden to bed for a few weeks now but have fought the urge mostly out of guilt. I feel bad that I am ready to turn my back on summer but I must go with how I’m feeling and be confident that I did what I could this year and now give back positive energy for the fall.

so here I am back at the original blog theme. I tried everything to fix it but I figured I may as well start over fresh….so you’ll have to look at this until I get it right again.

sorry for the “new” look I have here…..its all screwed up and I’m failing miserably at the coding. I promise I will continue to give it my attention but tweaking it isn’t working yet! gah!!

Full moon tomorrow am which means late night tonight I’ll be out soaking up all that our moon has to offer. Its always magical outside under the full moon. Harvest has arrived and the cooler nights mean fall is not far behind.

Do you all see this site messed up with lines here and there or is it just me? I upgraded to IE7 and this is what happens       

I should just go to a different browser but I’m afraid it will ruin everything in the computer…..any thoughts, anyone?